In the period before the divorce, I adopted a habit of saying ##I think I should kill myself## when something bad or overwhelming was happening at work. I was saying that in joking fashion, and everybody would laugh. It was aimed at breaking the bad of such situations and it became a sort of a running joke.
Another joke habit of previous person was saying ##I feel like i’m 87 years old##, see Lord of the Rings.
I also had two moments when I considered suicide for real, alone, in company with only myself.